And then there are those days

today went well.
School was pleasant.
Amber came home!
hurray!
I am soo happy!
I talked to Jim on the phone for two hours =)
And for the first time in probably more like 2 and a half weeks (because she was at my house for nearly half a week) I talked to Amber on the phone!
lolololol
I am in a good mood.
And I am about to update my vlog.
Pretty scenery if you can see it.
I was at the lake =)

Fires, Basements, Kind strangers, and the fire dept.

So my house almost caught fire today.
Not too long ago actually.
Still kind of shaky.
The fire was located in the window well.
But the fire dept. said that the fire was started in our basement and moved to the window well.

We had no idea it was on fire
but some kind stranger came running up to the front door and said that there was a fire
My mom brother and I went out to the front yard and the guy showed us over the fence the black smoke coming up from the window well.
My mom ran into the house immediately to call the fire dept.
I ran straight to the backyard and looked down the window well and saw the fire.
I quickly turned the hose on and grabbed it and pointed it down into the window well to put out the fire.
Once the fire did stop I ran into the house to tell my mom that I put it out.
She told the fire dept that I put it out.
They told her to get everyone out of the house and they were on their way.
They got here fast cause we barely walked out the front door and they were here.

There were 4 of them.
Two went down into the basement with my dad at first and another two were out by the window well.
The guys in the basement opened the window to the window well and investigated huge chunks of burned plastic.
They opened the window well and removed the huge chunks of plastic and found nothing that could have started the fire.

They left the window but did not leave the basement and the two guys that were outside stood in the front yard and waited.
Like 3 minutes later my dad comes out and tells my mom to go inside.
She was inside for like 5 minutes or so then calls Ray in.
That was when they discovered that the fire started in the basement before it made its way to the window well.
And since my brother was the only person to be in the basement at all today he was prime suspect.

I think he did it.
It is pretty obvious cause no one else was in the basement today.
But the fire guy aparently questioned Ray and Ray said he didn't do it.
Ray came outside.
And like 5 minutes later they left.

We are all safe.
The house is fine.
The basement is fine.
It just smells like burnt plastic.

Nothing was damaged.

But we still don't know how it started.
I hope we figure out how it started.
It was really scary.

Oh myy Vlog today

This is hilarious.
This is Selena Gomez from Wizards of Waverly Place and Demi Lovato from Camp Rock.
They have their own channel for Vlogging I just found out lol
Their Vlogs are funny.




hahahahahaha
Oh!
Btw my vlog thinger will be up today!
Cause it is sundayyyyyyyyyyyy!
Yeayaaaaa!
=)
I don't know how often I will Vlog but I will def.
have my friends join me in my Vlog cause I think it is
weird when you vlog alone and I don't like it!







oh yes!
find my vlog here ------> jillianmichellereinhartvlog.blogspot.com

Blog addict... third post of the day!

There is a sudden sense of meaning..
I just went to the lakewood falls firework show and Jim, Tom and his mom Lynn came with.
Jim and I talked and I feel a whole lot better..
And we are back together now we sorted things out.

We are going to learn to cope with each others flaws and I for one have alot..
I hope he can cope.

I still think though we have alot to work through to make our relationship work and I think we can do it.

I will never ever let the influence of someone else interfere with my relationship ever.

Stress control.

It has become clear to me now that I use crying as stress control..
I cry everytime I am stressed.
Literally..

I have been stressing alot today and felt like crying all day.
I cried this morning when my mom told me to do the dishes.
And I cried like 30 minutes ago.

I decided cause I was stressed today to go to the 5 service at the cac.
I did but I got there late.
I went cause I felt I needed the company and someone to talk to.
Mr. Scott is the new campus pastor for Romeoville.
That's about all I made it for.
I talked to Angela Kirchner and I started crying..
I told Angela that I miss Amber and I miss Jim.
I told her I feel like I made the hugest mistake breaking up with him..
I really hope I can get ahold of him today though..
I want to talk to him and see if he wants to come see fireworks with me..

But maybe it would be less stress if I didn't talk to him?
Idk...
I really want to..
I keep crying and my head hurts from crying so much..

break-ups

I am starting to wonder if I did the right thing.
It hurts bad to be without Jim...
And now I can't even get ahold of him at all not on his phone or home phone..
Everytime I try call I don't even get a dial tone..
I have called on 4 dif. phones..
=(
I miss him.
And I know it didn't bug me at first but I know I was wrong but I am just going to apologize to him.
And I wont beg him to take me back.

Movies,Fish,Guitars,and Dogs.

So tonight I am going to the movie under the stars thing at the park by Lakewood Falls Elemtary School.
I am bringing Rocky with me cause I don't want to go alone and nobody wants to go with me.
The movie is at 9.
Though I am wondering if Debbi or Marina will go..
I should ask them..

I cleaned the goldfish tank today it looks great now and I added two new types of rocks.
Crystal river rocks and Glow in the dark rocks that say "POOF!" on them =)
But I should have layered the rocks better oh well I will do it differently next time I have to clean them.
I still have to put the de-stressor and ick medications in the tank so they don't get sick and die.
But I cannot find the de-stressor.

I was watching animal cops and they were rescuing all sorts of abused dogs and animals and I think I might want to do something like that.
Be an animal cops.
Save the animals.

So I have totally become and O.C addict.
it is like the only show I look forward to watching everyday.
other than degrassi and instant star.
Those drama shows are much better than disnay channel I must admit.

The weather today is funky.
Like it was perfectly clear this morning and cold.
Now it is cloudy and rainy.
and HOT I might add.

My brother is currently running barefoot through puddles outside.

LAME.

Lisa, Alecia, and I were talking about America heading for another great depression..
Even though many people think it is impossible we are all thinking it's not and it is inevitable.
I mean come on the national debt is like $8023583049850285093428502439852 like no kidding.

Oh well.

Lisa said it will give her an excuse to run barefoot outside and not look crazy.

Monday Alecia and I are going to wear hat's to school.
We think we can get away with it cause Mr. Normand let Lisa wear her hat today.

Now Ray is vacuuming cause he is hungry and I want to go driving but my parents are watching the cubs lose to the sox.
And Lacey is barking like a maniac at the vacuum.

We're thinking the movie might get rained out tonight cause it is pretty nasty outside.
So I might just find my umbrella and walk Rocky in the rain.

I learned a new song on guitar today.
I learned "Just Like A Pill" from Pink.

I like that song.

This is the first weekend in a long while that I have no plans.
No party's, no friends, no movies.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I guess I can be a couch potato.

Whoa!
The sun just came out and it is like pooring down rain!
I must go see if there is a rainbow!
No rainbow but once again Ray is running around barefoot in the rain.

Rocky is soaking wet cause he just ame in from the backyard.

I hope that if I drive tonight I don't hydroplane cause it is very wet outside...

CUBS LOST.
Dang.
I wanted them to win.
=(

Now my dad is watching Jeopardy.
Ray and I really want to leave.

Woo!
I love that song "Burning Up" from Jonas Brothers!
=)

I got snails I named them Gary and Snelly like the snails from Sponge Bob.

And my mom doesn't want me to go to the movie cause of mosquitos so I guess I am dying my hair tonight.

I noticed I get comments like every other day on this thing..
I wonder if I can get comments everyday it would be appreciated so I know who is reading..

Okay now I am just rambling for lack of better thing to do so I am ending this hear.

And it all amounts to nothing in the end..

I don't think I have ever had second thoughts about a breakup after it happened...
Usually I have second thoughts before it happens.
I talked to Jim on the phone today for the first time since and it was really really hard..

My bangs are doing something really funky and cool at the moment and I like it..
haha
I am wondering how long it will be until Kara get's internet at her new apartment when she moves.
I know she moves on monday.
And I wonder if she will remember to update her blog.
And I know if she reads mine as often as I think she does then she will update her blog.
Lol.
I think...
haha

I missed Stuco last night.
I don't know how I managed that since everyone had messaged me and asked me to go..
I really wanted to go to.
Oh well...
There's always next week.

I pulled the nastiest scab ever off of Rocky today when we were sitting by the lake.
I did not pick it!
It was loose and stuck in his fur so I grabbed his fur and pulled it and it came off..
Whatever it was from had healed already and healed nicely cause you cannot see anything.
And no that's not cause of his furrr.

I am really looking forward to tomorrow for some odd reason.
Idk why.
But I have been almost banned from watching Camp Rock.
My mom is annoyed with it.
But oh well!
=)

"If God is a D.J. life is a dance floor, you get what your given it's all how you use it."

I can't help but feel bad after Andrea's comment last night on a picture I have of me and Amber on my myspace..
hmm..

Today Jesse was really annoying he kept singing parody songs using me as the subject!
He sang a parody of Nelly's "It's Getting Hot in Here"
Except he changed it into "Jill's Getting Hot in Here"
And he sang some parody of a song I don't even know and turned it into "Jill's got 5 on it"
Which aparently the song is about smoking Marijuana.
And he kept making comments on my driving OUT LOUD i might add so the teacher heard and he was making me sound like a terrible driver.
He kept saying that I love to drink and drive.
And I love driving in the Semi trucks blind spots
And aparently I love tailgating....

I am definitely not like that.
I get really scared everytime I even get close to a semi!
I definitely don't drink!
and I make sure I am at a 4 second following distance with the vehicle ahead of me.


So I layed out to tan today and I realized I really don't have the patience for it.
Not unless I have someone else out there to tan with me so I can talk to someone.
Or my iPod.

I was soo lonely and un-entertained so I came inside and watched "The O.C."


You know what is great?!?!?!
You can watch Camp Rock at www.Disney.com/camprock =) lol
Full movie!
Not just a clip it's the whole thing!
Lol I watched it on there the other night.
And you can watch the whole thing on there until June 30th which is monday.

Soo I need to clean out my fish tank it all of a sudden got really cloudy it's absolutely disgusting!

I have a song to reccommend for you all to listen to!
"Who Will I Be" by Demi Lovato
It is a really good song.


Oh!
The playstation 2 broke today.
No more Guitar Hero..
I don't think we will be getting a new playstation..
But oh well.
Unike Patrick I think I can live without playing Guitar Hero ever again..
lol

I need my Jeff Dunham dvd's back from Jim..
Esp now...

I cannot find a new song to learn.

oh yes!
I am still selling my guitars..

I have had numerous offers but none absolutely for sure.
The Fender-$75The Walmart Bass->$50

Still willing to negotiate.
But yea..
Just let me know if you want either of them.
I think I want to go to Barcelona...
I need to learn Spanish.
haha..

Thank you Cheetah Girls...

I am starting my vlog up again on sunday.
Why sunday you ask?
B/c sunday is the first day of the week so it only seems fitting.
I wont be posting my vlog in this blog.
I will make a special blog for my vlog.
hahaha

I want to be Batgirl....

I am going to teach Christina guitar =)

hmmm I wonder if I should stop here...
If I think of anything else to say I will either post a new blog or edit this one..

Can one song really say everything?

This song is like what I want to say.

I just want to get in your face and say it or sing it
minus the Joe Jonas parts...

Just what Demi is singing...



I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me


http://www.powerchordacademy.com/PCA2008.pdf

It would be soo cool if I could go..
But it costs over $300

oh yes!
I am starting my vlog again.
;)

you know what I realized!
if I posted my vlog on my blog I would have a two-for-one kindof thing lmao!

The controversy of commons room 'B'

Break time at school is usually something we all look forward to right?
Well I am starting to not.
even for the 15 minutes of no work time where we get to eat listen to iPods and tlak on phones even!
But yea it is starting to become the most dreaded place ever..
Cause everyday there is always something Jesse has to say about Christians not positive either!
He is always trying to make me ashamed to believe in God.
And I am really sick of it!
I know it has only been 7 days but it doesn't seem to end.

And I hate being the bad guy and just ditching him and ignoring him completely..

I just wish for once maybe we could avoid bringing up God or Christianity all together so we can avoid Jesse's lecture.

Cause I really think opposite of what he has been saying and last time I spoke out on it I had people backing me up but he still managed to be completely derogatory.

While this sunday is the gay pride parade in Chicago Jesse has been talking about it and decided to stage a Christian smack down because most Christians are agaisnt homosexuality.

I plan on avoiding that whole situation all together.

So today at brake I plan to sit with my iPod and maybe if I don't talk he wont find any reason to trash Christians.

And if you ask why I am just speaking of Christians and not other religions it's cause he specifically points out the Christians just because of Alecia, Lisa and I.

I can photoshop myself tan! Or atleast my arms..

But anyways beyond that, hopefully hanging out with Marina soon. I am gonna lay out and tan today if the clouds stay away. I do have school today at 10:45 and I get out at 12:45 a complete hour before everyone else. =P

But thank God there is only two more weeks left of school!
I didn't think summer school would be so short and what is great is I am passing!
I have a B!
=)

If I keep that up and through the finals then I can get my liscence in mid July!
=)

YAY!

But among that I miss Amber, the only person that I have talked to (not at school) is Marina.

Which I think if Marina isn't online when I get home from school I am going to call her and see when we can hang out cause we already established yesterday that we needed to.

AND OMG!
Dang Angelica got Ray into Paramore!
There is another freaking band he is going to ruin for me!
D=

oh yes did I neglect to mention the teen driving accident video yesterday was harder to watch this time than it was a year ago..
I kept thinking about Christina's accident and tht hasn't bothered me much lately as it did when I returned to school after getting my teeth pulled realizing I knew Christina...
I felt like crying during that video but I did not!
It was just sad hearing all the stories of 16-18 yr olds dying in car accidents while they were driving...

It almost made me scared to drive again but I think it made me alert cause I have been watching everything cautiously.

But i will never say that it will never happen to me cause you really don't know.
It can happen to anyone. <---I sound like an advertisement haha

but anyways I need to eat before I go to school so I am gonna end here and go get foood!
=)

CATERPILLAR

hahaha
I found these on the website for that Caterpillar fun day
oh my lol I have to admit I had fun at the caterpillar thing
I got a free hat
and saw how all the construction machines worked and watched on destroy a car and a mini van

I pretty much narrowed my friends from 4 to about 2 in 15 minutes... B/c I broke up with Jim, Dani wont talk to me... but whatever if that is how they want to be then fine.

I am so used to that happening by now.


Summer needs to get more interesting all I have done so far is walk Rocky everyday and watch re-runs of the O.C. oh! and I ca't forget that I have watched Camp Rock probably well over a hundred times already. I think today I am going to put on my bathing suit and some sun screen and lay out in the back yard and hopefully get a tan...

But then again that may be a bit awkward there are some creepers around here and I really need to shave....

Maybe for today I will just go on with my routine and watch Camp Rock and the O.C. re-runs.

So far the highlight of my day is my brother's girlfriend telling me I look like Hayley Williams. It was rather random.

So not the drama.

So I pretty much just broke up with Jim like just now..
I feel terrible for doing it over the internet.
But I figure if I did it that way I wont have to see him cry or get angry.
Now I just gotta deal with the many people who will want to hear what happened over and over again...
That is the second worst part about breakups are the people not letting it go and wanting to hear about it...
Maturity and age come hand in hand.

party party party

so two party's in one day!
exciting.
I have a headache.
but It was nice hanging out with all of the stuco kids.
Mike Vanderwater is really funny.
I was soo glad that Jim didn't go.

I spent alot of time at the stuco party playing games.
Patrick killed me at air hockey!
and Katie Hough and I played table tennis with Allie.

it was fun.
Jake Kirchner, Jessica Kidd, and some other kid and I went to culvers.
I had to pick off icky whipped cream off my coffee thinger.

but I been thinking lately.

I might sell a few of my guitars..
I don't need as many as I have...


I mean I would definitely keep Zorro, the acoustic bass, Amber, and Kara and I would sell the rest.
I will sell them and I am not going to keep the money from them to add to my bass fund...
I will either put it towards a car or I will donate it to something that I think it will do good for.
my new bass can wait I don't need it absolutely now.

and I think I am leaning more on the donating it to something that it will do good for.

my abundance in guitars has been making me feel greedy lately so.
it's time I narrow it down.
I hope you are proud of me...


=/ but what is gay is out of the 4 that I would sell only two can be sold..
the fender and the walmart bass...
cause the seagull is kara's and the other guitar is soooo broken that it isn't even worth selling it's more of a throw in the garbage kindof thing now...
but still at that I will be selling my bass and the fender and I know they aren't worth much but they are the only instraments that don't have any sentimental value to me or anything at all..

they are definitely good beginner's instraments so don't get me wrong!

=)

the fender acoustic is probably worth like $75 <----that is half of what was paid for it origionally.
and the walmart bass $40 <----that is like a third of how much was paid for it origionally...

I am really good at math so don't question my fractions.

I will go lower on prices we can negotiate.


But beyond that anyways..
Jake and I talked today about understanding baptism..
I told him that I didn't feel like I did my baptism for the right reasons.
then i told him the reasons and he was like that is a good testimony for baptism.
he told me i did get baptised for the right reason.

p.s. I am breaking up with Jim tonight.
wish me luck.
I have decided to go with the standard "I am breaking up with you" or "we need to break up" sentence.

la de da

So my mom made a point yesterday..
it took me a while to think about it.
and I agree with her.
So I am going to execute a plan that could ruin a relationship.
and oddly I really hope it does.
cause my relationship is terrible!
yay mom!
you have helped me.
what's odd is you usually see this in movies and t.v. shows and it always back fires..
but I think I have a better way of doing it.
and I definitely am going to say "it's not you it's me" just to be cheesy.
Oh thank you Lord.
=)

My mom reads everything

yep.
pretty much
I didn't know that but she told me that she has read my blogs
i don't know if she was talking about this or xanga...

but CAMP ROCK OWNED.
=)
totally worth it!

in the end it doesn't even matter.

I can't help but wonder...
Will God catch me if I fall again?
Will he guide me into something right instead of wrong?
How long will God and my friends stick with me until they suddenly disapear like alot of people in my life?
Can God get this permanent state of fear out of my mind?

=/

I don't feel faithless..
I feel faithful..
I just have questions..
I wish could be answered..














oh yes..
did I forget?
My sister is pregnant..
I am going to be an Aunt. =O
I hate kids...

The color red...

I am really starting to hate red.
My legs a redder than a tomato and they have been since sunday.
But now they have gained bruises from sunburn?
yes...
weird I know.
But it happened.

Summer school is a bore.
This kid Jesse that I have know since sophomore year sits next to me.
He is a satanist..
I am not so sure I enjoy talking to him but I don't like having no one to talk to so I talk to him..
I have also been talking to Alecia.

I have gone to thw Wdovech's hosue two days in a row being tuesday and monday but I did not go today.

I am scared to go over there again..

So I don't think I will.
And I think I am pretty much done with Jim to...
He is too immature for me I realize..
I really think he may always be.

What's weird is I have had no interest in guitar the last two days...
I really don't feel like playing.
I have also decided I really don't want to be in a band at all either..
I think I am just fine playing guitar with just Amber.
So I think I am going to quit Rise to Rebel.

When I was filling the gas tank in my dad's car yesterday I got gasoline all over my favorite shoes...
When I took the pump out of the gas thing in the car aparently it put too much gas in the car so the tank over flowed and got all over my shoes..
It was terrible.
So now my Vans smell like GAS.
EWWWW

But now I gotta take care of Rocky.
And I gotta pick my brother up from Angelica's.
I wish summer would get more interesting.
Oh yes!
I hit my face on the desk today..
some exitement...
But I hurt my nose and it hurts alot when you touch it...
It hurt when I washed my face earlier...

Ohkay now I am done rambling.