A cinderella story...

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

May angels lead you in.




Jim and I are permanently over...

I am waiting for my Cinderella story..

long time no update.

I have a headache.

Jim and I are taking a break until sunday.
and on sunday we decided if we are going to break up or stay together.

No plans this weekend.
going to be bored and lonely cause I will have no one to talk to.

but i guess that's a good thing cause breathing space is needed every once in a while and I fear i have been getting on my friends nerves lately esp. Amber's..

driver liscence.driving.friends.party's.buffalo wild wings.

so on tuesday I got my drivers liscence.
on that same day I went to buffalo wild wings to hang with Jim and dani and her friends.
it was crazy!
but alot of fun.
I can't remember the last time i had that much fun.
We were the loudest group of people in bww's
we were louder than the crazy drunken people at the bar!
lol
I couldn't get taylorr to sing for me but i know she can sing.
she is an amazing singer.
when we left bww' we went to cold stone where allie and nicole found a facination with Ken Kocna's hair.
lol
Jim and I left nicole and allie and two strange guys and another girl alone out side of
Murray's auto parts shop.
Wednesday I drove all over town between plainfield and naperville.
I went to the orthodontist and saw Josh and Megan!
After the ortho. I picked up Amber
We came back to my house for like 30 minutes then went to stuco in the park.
Highlight of stuco in the park was Amber, Elizabeth, Jessica Clinkert, their friend, running across the street to a bar to sue the bathroom.
I followed and went with but only because I did not want to be alone.
Cause Jim was less than company.
He was a big jerk on wednesday it was odd.
But he has redeemed himself.
Yesterday I don't remember what I did.
It probably wasn't anything special cause i can't remember it.
TODAY i know i didn't do anything.
but Josh came over and did the clone pictures!
But I need to update my journal for the first time in over a month.
oh!
Sunday is my brothers 16th birthday.
and Today is Ryan Jordan's birthday.
Ryan Jordan is dan's little brother.
Say happy birthday to them!

I had my fun for the last day.

Today was the last day of school.
It went well.
I pissed Lisa off with the Jonas Brothers and Alecia and I went to portillos with my dad afterward.
=)
I passed.
And am gonna get my license tomorrow morning..
But now I feel sick from the excitement and nerves so I am going to bed.

I will stand up.

That says it all.
Just watch it.
Read the story.
Don't just listen to the song.

weird.

I can't believe that I haven't updated in so long.
My parents are trying to find a 20 gallon fish tank for my goldfish.
I am trying to get my own digital camera.
I just found out that the day I wanted to go to Lisle fest some of the girls from Camp Rock were there!
=O
Dangggggggggg.
I have seen Jim almost everyday since last friday.
Uhm I gotta update my vlog today it has been a while since I last did one.

My room is amazing.
I got another weekend of no plans.
Soo...
Theres a quik update.
Going to go do my vlog now.

not a good feeling

I am feeling this pressure and pain in my chest
it's like my heart or something..
idk..
it hurts to take a deep breath
and earlier it felt like my heart had stopped beating for a second
there was this feeling that my heart had scrunched up and gotten tight.
it has hurt since then..

blahh

anyways..
I spent all day with Jim.
I had lots of fun.
I will post that story tomorrow morning though
I am tired and want sleep.

the weekend.

Saturday:
Amber came over.
When we went to pick her up she was stuck in the tree in front of her house.
I was really really glad to see Amber.
We watched Camp Rock and played guitar but barely played guitar.
Watched TV.
I don't remember what we watched..
I know that I was on the phone with Jim and Amber started talking to him and he though it was me.


Sunday:
Went to church.
Jim came to church!
While I was at church my parents switched beds in my room.
They put my bed in Kara's room and put Kara's bed in my room.
That bed is actually very comfortable..
But anyways,
After church I went to Jim's house.
We did nothing but sit on the couch playing video games and watching movies.
We watched August Rush and surprisingly he liked it.
His friends Mike and Kari were over and so was Jake C.
But they all seemed to have been more interested in hanging out with Tom than Jim.
Cause that was all they did.
Jim and I wound up hanging out on our own most of the time.
But Lynn took Mike home then Jake then me.
And they came inside my house for a bit to talk to my mom.
They were here for like 10 minutes.
Then they left.
Then I rearranged my room.
And went to bed.

Jim <3

Jim is fine.
I talked to Lynn on the phone when he went into surgery and then talked to her again when he got out.
And I went to visit him and he was doing great.
He is very much likely possibly coming home tomorrow!
I was sad to see him in a hospital bed but at the same time very happy to see that he is okay.
=)

no vlog again today.
maybe tomorrow.

Pray for Jim

Lynn called me again this morning to tell me she was taking Jim back to the hospital.
He has to have his appendix removed.

I will update with more information later Lynn said she would call me.
Just pray for now that it goes well.

rib fest, food, emergency rooms.

I went to rib fest tonight.
I know I volunteered to go so I wouldn't be home alone but,
it was boringggggggggg!

And what made it worse was I got a call from Lynn Wdovech (that i missed) at like 8:30 and she left a message
telling me that Jim was in the emergency room at Edwards Hospital
That there might be something wrong with his appendix
and I should call her back when I got her message.
Sow when I heard that I called her and she talked to me
then Jim talked to me and he was in pain
And we discovered that Edwards was right by where we parked the car and right by rib fest..
I wanted to go over there and see him really bad but Mom didn't quite permit that.

but now I am exhausted and probably wont be able to sleep...
I am hoping Amber calls me cause I need to talk to someone and she is the best person to talk to one of my favorite people to talk to when I need to talk to someone.

p.s. no vlog today.

Best friends and boy friends

It has really become aparent to me that Jim and Amber will never get alone..
But oh well.
I swear to never let a boy get between me and my bestfriend.
but Right now I am feelinf headachey and nauseous so I am going to go to bed and do my homework..

boredom and no friends?

So I am like dying of boredom lol.
Uhm maybe tomorrow someone will come over.

I hope I get to hang out with Amber soon.

My goldfish tank has gotten ridiculous you cannot immagine...
It is starting to lose water now?
yea..
and the water is a terribly cloudy pink so you cannot see the fish unless they are right against the glass!
it smells like rotten eggs but much worse!
I don't know what to do anymore I have tried everything to keep them clean but I seem to be failing..

unless next time I wash them I throw everything in the dishwasher to clean..
idk they aren't sick or anything but there is something in their tank making it all gross..